Trip back

Every one needs uplifting. In moments of despair, and in moments of need.
Even for those who have someone, and family there are times when loneliness creeps in, driving you into solitude moments.
I know it happens to me sometimes , when i hold myself so tight, pinch my wrist, and tell myself I am strong. Its a crazy world out here, think about it..... if you are not working yourself to exhaustion trying to keep your credits on track, the mumbo jumbo of daily routines still get you. The last thing you wanna do on times like this, is lock yourself inside. God gave us beautiful shoulders so that if anyone needs somebody, they should reach out and lean on them.
Make your shoulders a leaning point for someone in this lifetime.
This year before it ends, I want to reach out to the family of the one I once loved. I saw his family only once after he was gone. I saw them thru films of tears. I saw them when I leant on his mama's shoulders. I saw them when they begged me to stay a few more nights. I turned it all down, because it was too hard for me to do. Share the pain with them , when I needed to cry alone. I kept thinking I have lost my beloved, what about his mama, he had lost a son, and I didnt know how to stay and be strong while I was too weak to encourage them. Then I thought last year I would be strong enough to make the trip, and it didnt happen; just like the year before that. The pain wasnt getting any lesser, nor was I getting stronger. But I believe this is the year that the Good Lord has set aside for me, for a breakthrough, and I will be going to a place I call home, because my heart and prayers will always be there. Times are hard, I will always be busy, the pressure of everyday life wont dissappear, and I cant just put it off this year, I would like to be there just one more time
Memories dont die just because someone is gone.

"For my thoughts are not your thoughts, Nor are my ways your ways," says the Lord. "For as the heavens are higher than the earth, So are My ways higher than your ways, And my thoughts than your thoughts.Isaiah 55:8-9