Maybe I should have said Days of my life, they are moving too fast too soon. And with every step I progress with, sometimes my heart pumps harder than it should with thoughts of, am doomed to be alone. Loneliness is not my idea of spending the rest of my life, but as days go by I keep meeting old school girlfriends who are married, college friends, and lately it was my childhood neighbour Judy, bumped into her in the bowling hall, I happen to have moved jobs out of town but she is here with her hubby, she got married and they moved into this town.
I had to hold my smile and say" that is so nice, " Am talking about jobs while everyone else seems to be talking about family. I must be in the wrong direction, but I cant help it, spending a life time with anyone is a commitment that I would want to come from my heart. That is the way TM would have loved it, and I promised him on that graveside, that I will do it right just for loves sake, that if somebody else gets to loving me, I got to be loving them back too.
I ask, do I beleive in fairy tales too much! Am gone turn 40 someday and everyone will be asking, how can beautiful people like her turn out like that! This is a secret between God, myself and TM, that even if it lasts me a life time, that I had been loved by the best.
All the best,and nice time
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I've been reading your blog for a while, and I'm sure I've posted a comment somewhere. You're not in the wrong place - you're right where God wants you to be and I firmly believe that He is going to use your loneliness and heartache to do a greater work in your life.
Blessed be God, even the Father of our Lord Jesus Christ, the Father of mercies, and the God of all comfort; Who comforteth us in all our tribulation, that we may be able to comfort them which are in any trouble, by the comfort wherewith we ourselves are comforted of God (2 Cor 1:3-4).
He healeth the broken in heart, and bindeth up their wounds (Psalm 147:3).
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